O, zhe zhen shi ge kuai le de jin zhan. Well, this is a happy development.
I've been in Crocker Park for less than a week, and who should I discover is not only living in the same town but also working on the police force where I will quite probably run into him on the job? That's right. My ex. Not my ex-husband, the lawyer, but my ex-fiance from London. Here, of all places. And not one cross word to say to me after ten years? He's a better man that I am, that's for sure.
He even asked me to dinner Saturday, which was awkward, and a little more that I could believe, but went surprisingly well--until I fouled it all up again as usual. I don't know what's wrong with me. What's so hard about admitting that I was a bitch, accepting the fact that I have a chance to make a fresh start, and going from there? Why can't I let go of the past?
I suppose it's hard to do that when he's staring you in the face, and looking just as good as--if not better than--ever, but this is ridiculous. I feel all of fifteen years old, and suffering from my first broken heart, when I was the one who did the breaking. This can't be healthy.
Anyway, it's late, and I will probably have work tomorrow, so I'm going to put a few fists into the heavy bag and call it a night.